after all of this happened ... I just realized ... I don't ikhlas everything... I don't realize about what I am going to do... what I want.... what I want to be... thanks for realize me... I want to looking for a good money.... please pray for me... I want to be a good person.... J.K
disapointed for twice.... now... I don't know what am I going to do... they're not hold into my hands again... I fell into a dark hole... which there's nothing grab my hands and hold into my hands... they're just saw me like a trash and poop...
this is my life .... or their life... ?? this is my body... or their body... ?? this is my mind ... or their mind... ?? this is my wish... or their wish.... ??
just can see you from the pictures... just can remember you... just can text you as friend.... this is my love.... best wishes for us my love , my friend...
thanks for everything.... first time... I want to say thanks for my god... Allah SWT because all of this can't be done without you... thanks ya Allah for hear my wish.... thanks thanks and thanks...
it hurt to hear they're talking about me... it hurt to see they're not see me.. it hurt to see they're mad , not care to me.... yeah ... that's really hurt... which I know until now all of you always right and me always wrong and I'm a crazy person.. me
happy birthday to me... keep be better person... always be patient.... always love everyone... keep smile till rest in your life... happy birthday to me.. :D
yeaah... I'm crazy... I'm stupid.. I'm crazy b*st*rd.... yeah.. this is me.... ohh... my heart so crazy... I'm a crazy person.. please don't ever near me...
when I want to mad... I'm really can't express that feeling... when I want to cry .... I also can't express that emotion.. hiding my emotion in my heart really hurt .... you can't express that feeling... it will be hurt in your heart....
I want to talk about something happened with me.. I also want to talk about something wonderfull .... I also want talk about my sad life , my good life ... but.... with who I was talking ?? I'm so such a pity right..... I just can hidden in my small room and with watching my idol's videos....
sometimes I always think I'm egoist... sometimes I think they're always think theirself.. I'm so afraid to do something... sometimes I always think it will be better if I didn't do something.. hidden in my small room and just imagine something good in my brain...
please.... I don't want to hear that... please ..... I don't want to see that.... please.... I don't want to feel that.... my heart my heart..... really really really really scared...
I just want to be a good person.. but they're judge me like a devil person.... sometimes , I ever wanted to pretend didn't hear what their talking... but,... I can always hear what their talking... I really really tired... I just always hide in the back door...