It's been a week I was here. Sleep, watching, eat, sleep, watching, eat... and always do the same things. I feel my body, my legs, my hands, my mouth, my eyes, my mind and my heart... its so heavy. My eyes so hot, my cheeks, my mouth, my stomach... truly really hot. I want to scream a loud but I can't. I want to angry but with whom. I want to hit but there's no target. I want to sleep but it's too often that I can't close my eyes anymore. I want to cry but I don't want to be alone. Thats so emptiness. I feel in my chest there's too much wind is blowing so that makes my body and heart cold. J.K