koyakoya

Dulu.... Aku mendekat engkau menjauh... Aku menjauh engkau mendekat... Sekarang.... Aku mendekat engkau mendekat... Aku menjauh engkau pun tak bergerak... Aku tak ingin engkau menjauh tapi, aku takutt ketika nanti saat aku mulai mendekatimu lagi engkau akan melakukan hal seperti yg engkau lakukan padaku diwaktu dulu...

Apapun yg kau lakukan takkan pernah puas bagiku... Aku ingin engkau melihatku dan engkau pun melihatku but it's still not enough.... Aku ingin engkau menyapaku dan kaupun menyapa tp apalah daya aku menginginkanmu lebih... Dan sekarang aku pun menginginkan dirimu seutuhnyaa tp apalah daya kenyataan kadang tak seindah mimpi...

Aku tak pernah memintamu untuk bersamaku.. Aku tak pernah memintamu untuk mencintaiku.. Aku tak pernah memintamu untuk mempertimbangkan perasaanku.. Yang aku minta adalah engkau jangan pernah berubah menjadi orang asing bagiku... Jangan pernah engkau mengabaikanku... Jangan pernah engkau menghindariku... Jangan pernah engkau mencaci makiku... Jangan pernah engkau menghinaku... Tapi kumohon juga, jangan pernah memintaku untuk berhenti mencintaimu... Tak perlu kau minta pun saat ini aku sedang berusaha untuk berhenti mencintaimu...                                                                 J.K

kau mengatakan iya, tp hatimu berkata tidak... kau membuatku terbang lalu kaupun juga yg menjatuhkanku... aku harus apa jika seperti ini ? respon apa yg harus aku lakukan ? ingin selalu tersenyum tapi hati tak ingin melakukan... tapi jika harus mengikuti hati maka kau adalah seorang pendendam... menahan amarah yang tak kunjung padam... semoga di tahun-tahun berikutnya ketika teknologi semakin canggih, bakalan ada seseorang yg menemukan ramuan penahan rasa sakit dalam menahan amarah.... semoga aku menjadi org yg lebih baik lagi...                                                                     J.K

from a few days ago I'm so nervous.. I'm nervous about everything... my grade scores, my family matters, my life compeletely turn become 180°... In my memories when I was child everything is ok but step by step it ruins my life... I can't sleep enough, I can't laugh with sincerity.. I hope this storm can be finish.. but always there one queostion in my head.. Can I be happy again ?                                                                   J.K

apa yang kau harapkan ? Can't you stop to be dreaming ? accept the reality .. you will just be hurt again.. stop to fooling around.. keep up your head and go on... you must be a good person don't stop trying... Okay                                                                     J.K

If you come just to hurt, better get rid of this feeling..

If you want to be not hurt just always do : *don't think too much *don't expect too much *give a little *take a little even though that's so hard, please remember it. and please love to yourself... don't be hurt because the scar still remain forever....                                                                    J.K

that wish my friend.... thank you ..

happy birthday for me.. thanks Allah SWT for have been give me a chance to be a better person.. thanks have been give me a this face, a this mind, a this body, a this mouth and a this heart.. I hope I will always be a good person... please pray for me to not give up became a good person.. once again... I truly thank you Allah SWT...                                                            J.K

that's so tired.... I'm give up for you... I stuck in here and you keep running from me... All I have to do just stand in here and waiting another people to catch and run with me... I think that's I have to do right now...                                                                     J.K

you're selfish... and I'm selfish... should I give up now ?? Do you want it ? please answer me.... pleasd give me the answer... so I can move forward.....

just useless

once again... once again.... once again.... sorry... I'm alone again... sorry..... I'm a fool....                                                                     J.K