love.... love.... love.... I like you but you don't like me I don't hate you but you hate me I want to be friend with you but you don't want to be friend with me someone ever said " if love come to friendship then your friendship will be break.. " this is the power of love..... they're sweet but also bitter... love can make you become you're crazy.. I think this is my punishment... because I never ever feel loving someone truly... I just use them for my excited... I'm really bad girl... Oh Allah ... I'm so sorry.... please give me one more chance to love someone....and give me one more chance to be loved with them.....
people was change... their heart was change... their mind qas change... I really scared about that... I think I will never get this feeling again... but, now I'm feeling that again.. I really scared to be lost them again.... to lose my frienda again..... I'm really scared.... please..... don't leave me again.... don't go anywhere.... please help me..... I'm really scared...
tired... really tired... tired until I don't want to do anything... I'm so scared.. I'm so guilt.. I really wonder if this will be end.. pleasee.. don't be change...
terulang kembali..... I've been left behind.. I'm alone again... I'm lonely again... I'm the fault again... I'm feel sad again... I was crying again... I feel ashamed again... oooh this is my life... Life is complicated.... hmm maybe this statement just for me... 😂
I want to cry... but I can't.. I wnat to laugh... but I can't.. I want to smile... but I can't.. what would I do ?? I don't know... now, I don't have objective... goal... passion... I hate this feeling .... I hate this life.... I hate this situation..... so, I just wanna to say "please let it be the end"...
aku memilih untuk diam disepi ku.... mau bicarapun juga aku tak tau apa yang harus aku bicarakan.. lebih baik aku diam seperti inii..... inilah kisah tak berujung..... antara aku, kau, dia, dan merekaa.. inilah kisah diantara kitaaa......
Astaghfirullah..... my world fall apart.... I don't know what I am to do again... I feel my heart stop breathing.... empty.... relly really empty...... J.K
a long ago, I think everything gonna be fun.. gonna be alright, gonna be memoirs of happiness.. now, I feel my college life it's not be fun anymore... please forgive me Allah...
mungkin memang benar... aku takut pada manusia... entah aku yg terlalu sensitif atau mereka memang seperti itu... atau mungkin memang mereka yamg tidak menyukaiku.... apa aku harus pindah lagi ?? pindah ?? apa itu memang apa yang aku inginkan... entah kenapaaa... aku merasa seperti dunia tidak menginginkanku... aku takut menghadapi ini semuaaa... aku takut tersakiti.... aku takut untuk ditinggalkan... apa yang harus aku lakukan ??? mereka mengatakan itu semua hanya candaan... tapi tidakkah candaan mereka itu sudah kelewatan ?? aku takut... aku takut terluka lagi... aku takut cuman aku yang menginginkan mereka... apa aku emang sejahat itu ??? apa aku emang yang terlalu bodoh... apakah hidupku akan terus seperti ini ???
mereka mengatakan padaku "gak ada kata maaf dalam pertemanan" mereka menganggap aku spesial , mereka menyayangiku.. bisakah aku mempercayainya ??? bisakah aku memegang mereka dngan erat ?? bisakah aku bertaham dengan semua ini ?? bisakah aku mempercayai hal ini sekali lagi ??
This is so difficult to say.. everything always be wrong... huaaah when will this be stop ??? I don't know what I am to do.... thats make me so hurt...